So it's been a while since I've updated this...
I've had all four of my wisdom teeth pulled out yesterday so I'm still pretty much in a lot of pain right now. :( But other then that... I've extremely emotional and stressed out lately. One of the main reasons is because of dance.

fuck I SUCK SO SO SO SO MUCH NOW.
Seriously.
I was in bed the whole day watching So You Think You Can Dance and ABDC. Tears were friggin streaming down my eyes. I know... drama queen foreal eh?... well I couldn't help it! :(
I'm not even saying I was the best dancer alive. Really though, I'm not even that good. But for sure I was working really hard. I mean, I gave up a lot too - Spending at least 8 hours of bussing in every week... when time was always extremely crucial to me. There was no doubt that the work paid off though. I was excelling, more and more every week. But ever since summer has started my dancing has gone downhill faster than a friggin avalanche. I blame work. Not completely, but a huge portion of what stood in the way of workshops and practices is work. I friggin regret taking in three jobs so much. Honestly, I don't even need the money. I just got way too caught up trying to achieve a summer that's productive as possible. I was stupid to think I can manage everything at once. This had always been on my mind and it really bothered me. But two days ago, when my team captain told me that he noticed it too. It was a huge reality check. I need to do something about it.
I'm gonna quit all my jobs. Well... Maybe keep one that lets me work only 1-2 shifts a week so it won't get in the way of my school work and allow me to re-up my dancing...
Can't wait till Sept - gonna train mad hard. Just watch.



and -
I'm really scared that dance is going to end up the same way music did in my life.
Full of passion at first, then just start to drift away from it. I really hope nothing will be able to pull be back.