Sea otters hold hands when they sleep so they don't loose their partners.


They just float and sleep like this.

I feel sick.

I've been pretty upset since Friday because I felt like I really messed up on my Accounting exam, AGAIN. Not as bad as last semesters, but I hate it when I repeat these kind of mistakes. I mean, it's still a lack of preparation but I fully knew how hard this exam was going to be. -_-
UGghhhh I feel angry just thinking about it.

Despite all of that, valentines day really cheered me up. My boyfriend took me to the Pickle Barrows that we went to on our first date and then we went to watch Dear John. The dinner was amazing as always, and the movie was pretty good. I still think Dear John is over rated though. I love chick flicks but this one just wasn't as good as everyone made it sound, & the ending was pretty bad but it still had its moments. Oooooh and I got my boyfriend that chess drinking game set that he's always wanted since we saw it on Rich's facebook. Can't wait until we put it to use :p hehe.

So now that reading week has officially started - its crunch time!
I have my Management, Psych, and Econ exam next week. Kolaboration rehearsal and 5 dance practices throughout the week. In addition to that, I'm planning to continue going to the gym at my school everyday for breaks from studying. I'm actually really excited!

So my daily routine for the week will be something like...
Wake up, goto school, study, dance practice, study again, gym, study again, go home, shower, watch Entourage, sleep.

:)

Can't blame me, just living life without facebook. :)



Baby I'm your insulin I think you need your medicine.

I am honestly convinced that my Psych. prof is the best prof in the world. Every single lecture fascinates me and its better than watching an Oscar winning movie.

Today he said something about how there are people who consume 80% of their energy on repression and that's why they are so tired all the time. And I honestly think I am, if not, becoming one of them. I use to be able to live on 5-6 hours of sleep every night and wake up as energetic as ever in the morning. But lately even 8 hours isn't enough for me. I need like 10-11 hours of sleep just to be able to function properly throughout the day, and even still, I am constantly stressed tired and easily frustrated. The only resolution to that problem is to stop repressing all my unwanted feelings, thoughts, urges and negative impulses out of awareness. I need to analyze those problems, accept them, and change them.

So first, here are a list of things I like about my self and that I do not want to change regardless of whether some people may think is good or bad:
- Ambitious
- Goal oriented
- Open minded
- Very opinionated
- Workaholic
- Likes to do things routined
- Lots of hobbies
- Likes to take the lead
- Determined
- Non judgmental
- Caring/ Soft heart

Now the problems that had brought burden to my past but I am determined to make change:
- Non accepting to changes
- Way too emotional
- Not punctual
- Likes to take anger out on other people
- Put my self down too much (Lately)
- Have problems of letting go of the past
- Have to have things my way
- Get put down too easily
- Cares too much about what other people think or say about me
- Too distracted ( as I am right now pulsing my lecture to blog)
- Over react to everything when I am upset
- Make too many irrational decisions or thoughts when angered


Honestly, I think a big part of the solution to overcome most of those negative things are staying optimistic and self reflection - what I'm trying to do right now.
I am convinced that keeping a positive perspective and working hard will get I everything I need. Some of those bad habits just need a little discipline and will power to concur. And as for my anger issues, all I need is something more beneficial to focus my negative energy on so they can be converted to something positive - like writing, dancing, or music.

Okaaaay back to studying! :D

Maybe the reason behind why I keep thinking he would do that is because that's actually what I'm tryig to do. But I just didn't realize it until now.
I honestly think I've already gotten the worse out of this situation, and learned all that I could. All that is left to do now is put those lessens in use and correct my habits. So whatever else happens from now on I think I'll just continue to stay optimistic and everything will fall into its place - no regrets.

Ugh, I hate using cliches.

On a more positive note, I'm really starting to see a major turnaround in my life. & more importantly, my family as well. I've just recently started reading the bible to them (about two verses) every night.

Everything is looking good, for the better. :)

Gym; Grades; Healthy Foods; God; Family; Friends; Dance as usual. I'm starting to love my life again foreal.

Sometimes love comes around,
and it knocks you down.
Just get back up when it knocks you down.

Actions speak louder than words so you topped it.
You crushed it right in front of me & Threw everything away.

I know that's more than enough to get me through.

Today I realized that I'm ready - already - because I can.
But I still don't want to.

You're not what I need but I know what I want. The same thing I've always wanted.
Once you've had a taste of it you just can't stop. It's certainly not impossible but I know you won't want to.