When the wind is blowing in your face
sometimes in life you don't see straight
Pray to him, and He will show

When your head is in a certain place
Nobody around to make you safe
Stand strong, and you will grow

Wait till they see your smile

don't they love to see you down
kick you while you are on the ground
don't let emotions show

people always speculate
don't let them get in your way
see they say things they don't know

Hey

So your doing better now
Everybody comes around
but you don't really need 'em
'Cause your stronger and your better and you're ready for whatever

Wait till you see my smile

That whole lil wayne being overrated shit is outdated.

What's up now is that Nikki Minaj sounds like a constipated 8 year old that only talks about pussy sex and drugs. She's pretty hot I guess. But no lyrical content and I can't stand her VOICE! I don't know if its a good thing or a bad thing but I actually starting to get used to mainstream lyrics with all the radio music I've been listening to lately(obviously not). But she is beyond more that what I can tolerate. In my opinion she completely destroyed bed rock and not a good way. I don't care how much everyone likes her "rap". ITS NOT CUTE. Rappers should hop off that wanna be lilwayne tip, honestly, its about time. I'm not a hater, I'm just tired of the lack of quality music in my life. I really need to learn how to download music on this computer without Limewire. -_-

On another note, I thought Waving Flag was the most annoying song ever. It plays on the radio like 239839585 times a day and I'm a big radio listener, so I KNOW. I do respect the message being conveyed in the song but I thought Knaan sounded like the modern version of a really shitty Bob Marley.
But I was at HMV today looking for The Beatiful Struggle (which btw is like impossible to be found -_- 3rd HMV already) and the guy recommended me to one of Knaan's cds. Since it was in one of those listening booth thingies I thought I mind as well give it a try. Surprisingly there were A LOT of good tracks. His style is a lot like the roots and there were also some pretty soulful songs too. Here are a couple of the good ones.







vibe to it

Pride is your greatest enemy.
Knowledge is your greatest defense.

I don't have to prove anything to win because I work hard for what I want.

I've lost alot of my writing momentum. The thought already rusted in my mind. I can't write something that isnt fresh no matter how passionate I was about it
-------------------

So I googled what type of exercises I can do to get back dimples and found out that you'd have to be BORN with them. WLKJDSFINICRK :(:(:(:(
Damn they look good!! Oh wellllp.



Never had to spray slugs so I dont play thug
Or try to fit with the killers like O.J.s glove


Take in his wordplay.

& when they give ya they shoulders, never cry on 'em
& when they love you to death, never die on 'em

- Drake

Its so weird to see how other people feel about and react to situations that are similar to yours.

People are REALLY different.

NTS:
finish job search assignment [TONIGHT]
- resume, cover letter, copy of chosen job description, T-analysis, business card, copy of critiqued resume from mentor


FUCKKK :(

2009 had its moments, but overall it wasn't all that great
2008 was way better
Excited for 2010 because I'm sure anything will beat 2009


Highlights of 09:
getting into uni; dance <3 GNS in the begining & now my schoolteam; loved my jobs; got alot closer with my family; met my boyfriend; realized who is really worth being kept as a friend

Downturns of 09:
uni marks are shit; became way too emotional about everything; had the worse time management of my life; really don't like GNS now; fucked up on the last days of marciano so now all the managers hate me = no more reference; I have no friends; don't know what I want anymore; not happy

The start of the year was great, from Jan all the way to the end of sept. But from oct it all went downhill.

2010:
Anyways, I really want to move on from the shitload of crap I am in and focus on the positive things in my life- dance and my family.

this is a good time for me to start fresh and start developing a new state of mind.
Resolutions:

be less emotional
spend more time with my friends, or people who can potentially be
be optimistic
get my marks WAYY up and not get kicked out of my program